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That didn't last very long. I guess this is what dating is? Ehh.

... I wanted to take this really well and be cool and whatever about it, but uhhhh. Not as easy as it seems. I just need to go to bed before I -- no. whatever! yeah! goodnight!



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Feb. 21st, 2009 07:35 pm (UTC)
Sorry to hear that. :( Long-distance hugs.
Feb. 23rd, 2009 04:22 am (UTC)
I guess one must be more choosey. This is the philosophy I try to practice: I am deeply critical of any potential mates and scrutinize the hell out of them to decide if they'll be good for me. Once they pass initial inspection, it's time for a test run. If there are problems, the deal's off. Just like that; you gotta know what you want and actively seek it. Ruling out all others becomes an incredibly lonely practice (I've spent most of my life single), but I can tell you that I have come closer and closer to finding the perfect mate with each one. Don't allow it to let you down; you're learning what you want and what that says about you.
Feb. 23rd, 2009 07:32 am (UTC)
yes and no
I am still quite inexperienced in dating and coupling. I can count the number of men I've dated on one hand (and have fingers left over). But I think I'd probably prefer to spend the time with people that might not be perfect for me than alone. This one, for instance: we had fun while it lasted. It was satisfying in many regards. But of course each new relationship is an experience which shapes my future choices. But I will still choose to pass the time with people whose company I enjoy until "the right one" comes along, if he ever does. And I have significant doubts regarding the idea that there's "a right person" or a "perfect mate" for everyone, anyway. It's all a crap shoot. Interpersonal relations are the most complex thing ever, and I can barely make sense of any of it, but I'm going to keep doing it and hopefully get better at it as time goes on. It's the most I can hope for.

In terms of your process, this would probably have qualified as a test run, and now the deal's off, though not by my choice.

Of course it's a bit disappointing; it ended sooner and more abruptly than I might have expected. I'm thinking a lot about it and my part in it all, but I knew up front not to let myself get too invested, so I'm not too hurt by it. I think that in itself is progress for me.
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